A new poem


Shutter to think that one day you could end up aloneLeft with no one to hold you through you’re last moments

Shivering from the cold, you wrap yourself closer in a blanket

Death is never easy, the steps to bury you’re life

Leaving what behind and nothing at all

These moments you cling to are hard to hold on to

Distant and savage relationships

They become a redemption if you’re lucky

Collect moments, not things

When you become one with the earth

Its the memories that go with you

While your family fights for what you worked for

Those last painful breathes are turning you into a mess

And finally you descend to where you were alway meant to be

Heaven or hell

Its your choice to pick

But leave a legacy worth being proud of

And say good bye to those worth your last breath

Dont go alone, find love and peace

And fall into the ground full and complete
©Megan Riot Matthews

Wordy Saturday!


I have always loved words. Words seem to be more powerful than anything. A simple word could make someone smile, laugh, cry, mad, and even destroy someone’s mental state. My Aunt, also a lover of words, has always made it a point to give new words and definitions when she speaks. Something I have always admired. Like my Aunt, I love to find words in different languages and I also really enjoy finding funny words with amazing meanings. I also dive into names. I like learning the reason behind the name. So, today I have 6 words to share. Six words I find interesting, funny, or just plain awesome.

Fard: Verb; to apply cosmetics to your face. This is hilarious.

Redamancy: Noun; The act of loving the one who loves you; a love returned in full. This words just sounds romantic.

Morosis: Noun; The stupidest of stupidest. Perfection.

Whelve: Noun. To bury something deep; to hide. Love this word.

Sillage: French. Noun. The scent that lingers in the air, the trail left in the water, the impression made in space after something or someone has been and gone; the trace of someone’s perfume. So beautiful.

Gleed: Noun. A glowing coal. Just plain cool.

Are there any words you love or just can’t stop saying? Let me know!

Megan Riot

Winter is Coming (A Poem)


The hair raised from my skin

The goose bumps began to rise

My bladder full

I began to whine

It’s too cold in this room

Too cold in this house

Feeling frozen in a no snow

Filled winter wonderland 

Burro and burro

Under the covers

I hug my sweet pit bull

I miss the warmth, the sun

Afraid this cold air

With freeze me into no one 

©Megan Riot Matthews

Meant to be?


Beginning to feel so confused

Lost in this  messy race

of to be or not to be

There are times, small moments

When I feel I’m all you need

Then there are other times

When I feel insecure and unworthy

Like this isn’t real

And there is no way that we are meant to be

But you make me smile

You make my heart beat

Is it wrong to want to hold on

To hold on to this feeling

But im still stuck in limbo

Just because I like you so

I’m stuck walking circles wondering

If we’re meant to be

© Megan Riot Matthews

Depression Cocoon 


When you dont want to budge

Moving seems impossible

The covers seem to devour me

And I give in to my new home

Let the dark sleep

Over take me and heal me

So tired of being sick

This hell, it just wont let go

Wrap me in a cocoon

Transform me into something beautiful

Like a light, bright butterfly

I sink and sink

Let the fog smother me

Good night for now

Until I find the courage to break free

© Megan Riot Matthews

Random Monday!


Hey everyone! I hope you are having a lovely Monday! I woke up feeling very proactive this morning and decided to get some SHIT done! After some coffee from my french press and a long hot shower, I made a to do list and then actually threw it away. Ha, this never happens!


I got on pinterest for some essential oil roller ball recipes. I recently just got in some super cute ones from amazon, they are metallic and colorful. I’ve been itching to use them. I made only three, ones I felt were needed.

  1. Sleepy Blend 15 drops of both Lavender and Frankincense and rest Coconut oil
  2. Headache Helper 10 drops Peppermint, 6 drops Lavender, 5 drops Frankincense, and rest Coconut oil
  3. Opening emotions 4 drops Lavender,3 drops Orange, 3 Frankincense, 4 Etsher Annointing Oil, and rest Coconut oil

(These blends are made with Eden Garden’s oils and put in a .5 ml bottles)

         Got any blends you enjoy? Share them!

Second thing I did…

With all my depression and anxiety, plus living with someone else, I’ve been feeling kind of blah when I am home. I decided to cleanse my home of all negative energy with some sage. I love the smell of sage. I immediately feel better when I smell that scent. I also always feel more open to positive energy after I cleanse my home, pups, and self. And as I watch the smoke glide out the window, I feel more welcoming of positive energy.

Do you Sage or cleanse? Tell me your ritual!

After cleaning up the house and doing some laundry, I am now ready to relax and read Lolita. I even got some good writing in this morning! *Kudos to me* 

I love these day where I feel total motivation and no dark raining cloud is following me around.

Have a great rest of your Monday!

Megan Riot